i'm at lost ...

gosh, i didn't realize i haven't been posting like for th past 4days ?
haha. lol.
well, forgotten where i've been to on monday and tues.
all i could recall was gg to amk swimming complex with deb, zax, b, and my sis,.
went hub to lunch with fedorah and fwens.,
deb and zax tagged along aft swimming.
humans need to eat.
shortly after eating, deb and zax had to leave early.
so, buhh-byee goes to them.
chit-chat with fedorah and friends when my IRRITATING mummy called me to rush me home for no reasons.
went to buy mummy's fav. food before gg to th interchange and departing from th rest.
bus-ed home and wanted to just fall back on my bed and FALL ASLEEP.;

well, as for today, kinda tired though..
woke up kinda late.
went to central for lunch.
den went lib.
aft that, went to hub with an irritating sister, and a bag full of books.
plus, went to popular to get some other books for revision.
reached hub to help mummy pay her car taxes or sth,
went to hitch a bus ride home at th interchange.
blasting music on th way home.
emotions are just uncontrollable.
hoping th music would get thru my mind and clearing all thoughts.
how naive of me to think that way even ?
its still there.
th unbearable feeling.



uber tired today.
shoulders are aching badly.
hopefully it all will be fine tomorrow morning when i wake up..
or else i guess, its th relapse of my injury ?





wonder how's laoshi and angel doing.
thought of them out of a sudden.
random,. i know.



what more is needed?
i can't figure out.










will it sustain th way it is ?
or am i just right, to say that its ending ?
or rather, its coming to an end. (?)
i really have no idea what to do or say.
or am i just being a lil' too...
i don't know.
are you really even trying to savage our rekationship in th first place (?)
maybe even trying to prevent what is happening from happening (?)
what do you mean when you said 'i love you' (?)
or is it just to satisfy me?
i'd rather you either go back to 'her' or go to those 3.

maybe, i'm just really too naive to think that.. its gonna asucceed outta th past more than 10 tries.











anyways.
have been chionging sec2 geog since last week.




its really tiring..
i'm on th verge of breaking down..
REALLY..