♥ You And Me: Peek-A-Boo ! (:

Its been a long time since i last posted. And I kinda don't-know-how-to-start-this-off. -.-

Anyways.
Exams are over.
Results are out.
Oh God. I have only myself to blame. ):
G-R-E-A-T dissappointment.

Missed out a lot of things on blog. So, here I go ! (:

Firstly, of course, EXAMS.
Before the exams, everything was ... In a BIG mess.
Hmm. I've got myself lots of troubles and etc.
And as the examinations drew near, I realised I knew not a single thing.
I mean, of course, not totally NOTHING. Just, ain't clear bout a whole lot of stuff which were so alien to me at first.
Until I started revising and REALLY studying and MUGGING like a RETARD.
Luckily, I managed to get over w/ almost all except History. As I was running out of time.
Perhaps too focused on my other subjects and neglected the others. Y'know.
So, yea.
Then 28th April, which was a Wednesday, at the same time was History paper, was my actual birthday.
Was super touched by ( YuTing-Eileen-Ziyan-MeiFei-Puileng-Ctey-Leexean-Najwa-Rina-Clorence ) 'S present. Though it wasn;t what you see in common, its really special. Made with LOVE. Yea, i know. (:
Loveyou guys lots lots ! Shall frame it up ! (:

Ohya, of course, before the exams, went out with my loves to celebrate my birthday in advance.
Went to Plaza Sing' to watch 'Date Night' and was damn funny b/c apparent;y, SOMEONE burped in the cinema. Worse, it was when the whole theatre was uber quiet. And THANKS so much for saying , 'Oi ! Stella ! Don't burp lah ! Disgusting leh you ! ' ( Thats how she actually thinks of herself, huh ? XP
Had loads of fun and laughter. A pity we din't get to take much photos. Except one extraordinary vivid memory. Waha. Shall make it up someday. (:

But of course, HOPEFULLY i'm not grounded. ):
[ Because, i haven't showed HER my results. YET. Gotta a super super bad bad bad feeling if i did so. ]

Ahhhhhhhhhhh ! D:

I'm seriously regretting ! Should've done WAYYYYYY better ! It was far too much from my expectations.
Really. ):

Anyway. I bet this time, because of these results, i'm gonna lose much more things.
And i'm totally SAD. Very. ):

I guess I really need to bear in mind that ;

Its really no point crying over spilt milk. ):

Okay. Enough bout that. There are more coming up.

Not good things. But bad. For me. ):

Guess what. From the results I'm getting, I need TUITION BADLY.

BUT. She just loves being biased.

Looks like i have to give up the intention of tuition and help.

All i can do is, DEPEND ON MY OWN.

Next SAD SAD SAD thing,

I may have to give up on my passion and desire.

Sigh.

Yes, Dance.

Apparently, I was about t get t my goals.

Until the moment the results were freaking given back t us, and

I WAS TAKEN ABACK.

And then, this was what came to my mind.

Say buh-bye to what you've been pleading for all this while.

I really have no idea what to say to my beloved teacher. ):

We've been looking forward for this. And there goes.

Thanks to me. Kinda guilty though. ):

*Sigh*

I Don't Care. I believe I will find a way to freaking get me all i want. }:

Okay. And then comes AFTER the exams. (:

Well, let me just talk about happy stuff.

On the last day of exams, went to RELAX with my loves.

Initially, it was loves.

And then it became love. Because, someone, last minute, PANGSEH.

Neverminds.

Had fun still.

Went t Plaza Sing' AGAIN, i know.

Watched 'The Backup Plan'

Which was uber funny . Though its still not the same as watching 'DateNight'

Not the movie. But the people.

The lovely Threesome became a Twosome.

Anyway. Went Kbox-ing '' XP with love and guess what. My Mum joined in. -.-

But luckily she was in the mood that night.

For once.

Woohoo ! Of course, without that troublemaker in my life. She was at home.

Yipee ! No wonder i was happy. (:

Hahahahha !

Was damn tired when i got home.

But was worth the while.

Then next day, had practice.

FREAKING EARLY IN DA MORNING OKAY.

9am-12pm.

Perhaps its not that early. But to me it is ! ):

I want my sleep !

Lovely Mr BrandonNeo came to pick me up after practice.

And then went home tgt.

Did a whole chunk of housework. And then went t prepare myself for dinner.

I mean, shopping before dinner. (:

Decided to celebrate Mothers' Day in advance.

Thus, deciding to have dinner at Bliss, Punggol Park.

Hmmm. Overall, everything turned out okay.

Until bedtime.

They had majong and as usual, I was in bed , in the cold dark room, falling asleep soon.

Then Then in the middle of the starry night, SHE had to come wake me up for no goddamn reasons, just because she's done with her majong.

Like wth ? I needa sleep you know ? I can go home on my own the next day.

Just take the idiot with you if you want . Why me ? Sigh.

Was super tired and pekcek. But the defying was of no use.

Gimme that face like i did soething wrong or we were doing WHATEVER WAS ON HER MIND.

Please lorh. Hello. Think i as despo and sick as YOU is it ? -.-

Puke !

Even so, please go for someone better.

Ohya, i forgot, your taste has gone wrong all these while.

How would you ever find anyone better than what i found ?

Older than me BIGFUCK is it ?

Then too bad, no wonder you could only have him and he have you.

You both, are ONE OF A KIND.

And as there are quite a number of things going round my head for the past few months, i have no idea how t face em' . I mean, I can't bring myself to believe and accept what i knew.

Sometimes, i think , Its better to not know certain things.

Sometiems, i wanna be a moron, an idiot. Who knows nothing. And thinks no better than a kindergarden kid.

Sometimes, i wonder, Why do adults lie to us when they taught us not to lie ?

Isn;t that IRONIC ? Super.

Its just the same logic as ;

As days goes by, i'm feeling like i'm rotting more and more.

And i realise a lot of things. A lot of senses got through me and all.

Perhaps, blaming others isn't really the right thing to do.

Its just an act of avoiding. Because you can't face reality.

Sometimes, I wonder. Just what to go with ?

Some people tell me , ' Its possible. As long as you try. ''

While some others tell me, ''No matter how much you try, how much you do, you will never get there. Because its IMPOSSIBLE ''

Okay. Get over that.

Now, I've got to worry about a whole lot of things.

As in, a LOT of things are going on in my mind.

So if I speak in a very bad manner, please FORGIVE me.

You know what i am when i'm not in the modd, aye ? So, sorry, in ADVANCE.

June holidays are round the corner !

What do you have up your sleeves ? If you've got nothing, LEARN from Stella The Great !

She's got her schedule booked full and packed. (:

Well, actually, still, the main thing, is to stay out of this house as much as possible .

Because ;;

And its super true.

All that i've found out. No one could have ever believed it.

i mean, if it happens to you.

Neither will you accept it.

And the only way to help myself is to;;

Perhaps i should re-phrase it a little.

'' Keep calm and BE busy. ''

Would you believe if i said, i'd rather be studying and working constantly, getting home late, leaving early, not speaking to anyone. Just eyeing for the $$ and those good grades. ?

One day, i just wanna be that. And tell people,

Well, I've looked through those JC and Poly documents.

And have decided, I need to get into a JC.

I want to go to University. In the shortest period of time.

Which is JC.

I mean, I know poly offers more choices on the courses but ONLY 40% will be able t get into the U.

Sigh.

Its hard to decide.

But we have to think far and look more than a step ahead.

Isn't it ? And that is exactly what I'm doing.

Perhaps , it is stressing myself. But for what i need and have to, this is all i can do.

Learning to be independant is also part of life and growing cycle.

So, maybe its just that i started early.

But who cares. no matter what, i just wanna get there fast and steady.

Afterall, we're teenagers, and we're ;;

Can chiong jiu chiong liao ! We're all aiming for that TOP 40 3E1 2011 ! (:

Let's all jiayou !

Don't let THEM take over US.

Next thing thats on my mind is,

FRIENDSHIP. It is what we humans, teenagers , can't live without most.

Through all that i see and been through and is going through,

No matter how headstrong your best friend is, I believe saying THIS to her, will make her melt. Afterall, you know it better than anyone else.

To my Sisters and friends, here's to all ! (:

Last but not least, here's to my DARLINGS and loves.

My Darlings [ Kelly & Mr Brandon] , please know that no matter what, I know I am not always with you, but my heart is wherever you are. I may be busy I may be cold but not always. You know Iloveyou guys. And be it the past, present, or future, i'll be RIGHT HERE. Right behind you. Forever and always, living in me. (:

[ Perhaps I've been rather cold lately, but i promise it'll all be over soon. Thank you for being understanding and tolerant with me. loving you always. ] >>>> This is especially for Mr BrandonNeo.

Tomorrow's Our Fifth Month-sary.

Though we'll be busy, its okay, we're still tgt. (:
Forever & Always.
Hoping we'll last ..