No movie,.
But library. And subway. And window shopping. And popular book store.
Went popular, bought stationaries i need. Like finally. (:
Met up with baby and went t the library , borrowed quite a number of books. Yipee ! Hahs.
Then went t subway for late-lunch.
Yummy !
Ilovethesubwaydoublechocolatechipcookies ! :D
Then mummy came t pick us up at 4+ pm.
Went home t put the books and stuff, and off we went t Mei's house.
Mummy's playing majong with those anuties.
And , we watched cds'
Incidents happened throughout and got us laughing our ass' off. Hahs. (:
Fell asleep halfway through watching the cds'
Followed by mei and then cherie.
Baby was stuck. :p
I'm like lying on his arm and he can't change the cds.
And soon, he too fell asleep. ( :
Around 2+ Midnight, Mummy woke us up and we went home.
baby was like, blur. Hahs. (:
Reached home and couldn't get t sleep till ard 3+ ?
Woke up at 8+ this morning.
Went t meet QianYu and MingJun at hub.
Then trained all the way t Kovan and meet baby. (:
Cab-ed t Qiu Lao Shi's house. ( My all time favourite LaoShi since primary )
Bai-nian
She was like asking us t bring our boyfriend. So we did, (:
She was like praising baby time and time. He's like, smilimg throughout (?)
Hahs. (:
And of course, warned him. Them, rather. Hee XD
Been there since ... 11+ in the morning ?
Left at 2+ in th afternoon, after lunch. (:
Bus-ed t Bishan then trained back t amk and home-d.
Well, planned t go to my house with QianYu and MingJun and of course, baby.
But something cropped up.
Selena called me t rush me home , gonna go hospital.
Grandpa isn't in good condition.
And i was like, 'oh gawdd.. Pull through it like he did before, please. '
Feeling jittery all over , took 53 t Bishan and went t MRT station with baby.
While QianYu and MingJun went around J8.
Pondering and Wondering and Thinking ..
Blasting music in my ears since we left laoshi's house. Or rather since we boarded th bus,
And guess what, reached AMK and she called t tell me ' i';m not gonna wait for you. You take train yourself if you want t go. "
I was like, 'okay'
Then, she called again.
" Think you better stay at home t do all th housework lahh. "
I was like , "ohhkkaayyyy... "
Well, what can i do ?
All i could have done was t say , okay.
Went t get 'Mango Paradise' before going t th interchange t go home.
Baby came home with me and we're like doing housework tgt.
Hahs. So funny. (:
An example was, i was ironing and he was playing with th hangers, claiming t be helping me out.
By, hanging the clothes for me.
Like, he hasn't grown up. As childish as before. The old him 10 years plus ago.
Hahs.
Anws. He went home around 6+ almost 7.
Feel like sleeping now. Its been another day. (:
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What is wrong with this world ? Seriously.
Or rather, what is wrong with me ?
Why does it seem like i'm going crazy.
Or perhaps i already am.
And i mean, C.R.A.Z.Y
Lol.
I really have no idea how t face all these anymore.
I can no longer hold on to it like i always do.
I'm not as strong as what you see on the outside.
Its just appearance. Its an image. A fake one.
Stella isn't prepared t go through all this at this age.
She wants t play all she can , live life like all the others do.
Why doesn it seem so hard ?
Almost impossible.
Tell me what t do.
Life at home is still the same..
Or even worse..
Its not what i want.
Why is it that people with a broken family can still be happy and united despite the things that happen and we can't ?
I've been trying to ..
Nothing comes out of it.
I tried t savage our relationship at home.
Be it with Selena nor my mum.
But why is it still ike that ?
In fact, it got worse.
I don't understand seriously. ..
School ? Hah (!) I doubt i'm gonna be able t score well.
Like, tell me how. (?)
Teachers can't teach, people don't cooperate, everything sucks big time.
Good thing things between baby & mysef is alright.
Or i really have no idea how t face it.
This whole pile of god-damn-rubbish.
Grandpa is admitted t th hospital since ... i-don't-know-when.
Till now.
He was estimated t have left but he pulled through.
Is he gonna do th same this time ? Or is he leaving for good ?
Will i be able t get through this ?
Or am i gonna let go and give up ?
Tumble and breakdown and go crazy and what else.
I have no more strength t see this through anymore.
Seriously, i need a break.
And i demand for a long one.
A never ending one.
I no longer wanna come back here.
Nor carry on with life like this.
Thanks Qian and MJ.
You guys offered t go t th hospital with me.
I appreciate it . Really. (:
And of course, thanks lots too , baby. (:
You were there when i needed a shoulder t lean on.
Hopefully i won't do what i planned.
Though it means i'm gonna break my promise.
iloveyouguys. (:
loves.
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